真正の分手~

It’s nice and meaningful :) but this is not happen on me la… Just want to share this note out ~ hehe~

如果兩個人分手之後做了朋友，那說明_____我從來沒愛過你。
如果兩個人分手以後依舊可以做分手之前做的事，那說明_____我想讓你記住我。
如果兩個人分手之後我不再見你並大聲說我恨你，那說明_____我不捨得離開你。
如果兩個人分手之後在彼此的世界消失了，那說明_____我真的愛你。
分手時，沉默是最好的問題；最圓滿的答案.
戀愛是甜蜜的；分手是難免的，誰不是哭過幾次、痛過幾次，才找到最後的愛。
分手是必經的，但有些問題不必問。
1) 不要問：為什麼要分手…
無論答案是什麼，都是你難以接受的原因。
2) 不要問：你有沒有愛過我…
愛過如何，未愛過又如何？總之這一刻就是不愛。
3) 不要問：我做錯了些什麼…
愛不是講對錯，而是講感覺。相愛是談情，不是講理；當愛的感覺已經不存在，對或錯又可以挽回些什麼？
4) 不要問：我有什麼不好？她有什麼好？我有什麼比不上她…
何必逼對方，再一次侮辱你，打擊你的自信心。
5) 不要問：難道你不記得我們以前快樂的日子了？…
她/他要離開你，就是因為她/他要現在的快樂，和將來的快樂。
6) 不要問：不如我們重新來過…
這個哀求，只會讓對**得你更可憐，更卑微。
7) 不要問：我們以後還可不可以做朋友…
這樣拖泥帶水，對方只會感到厭煩。

我一直說一句話…
愛是最美好的記憶。愛過了，曾經擁有過了，就要學會知足，何必為難對方，讓曾經的美好變了味道，讓她/他曾經給過的溫柔成為孤獨時溫暖自己的美妙的回憶。
回憶是美麗的…珍藏走過的軌跡…握緊現有幸福…
◦'⌣'◦

No topic ~

1 day have 24 hr. 1 week have 168 hrs. All the time of yours spend on your stuff and friends. How many hrs you spend on me in a week?

Why am i always ask for your time for me? When can i end all this rubbish problems?

I’m totally focus on the relationship when i have a bf. Are you the same? No……….. you are not only focus on me. You told me that you don’t want to be simple in your life. You want to do many stuff in your life. But what i do is only for our relationship. This doesn’t mean i’m lifeless. I’m just over serious in the relationship.

Did you really read my mind when you read my blog? Did you really think about it? 

I never dare to expect we will have good future. Never hope how long i can together with you. Not i don’t trust you.

I’m just tired …… very very tired…….

It’s my nightmare ~

That feeling is back to me again. That uneasy feeling…. I hope i can ignore and less care too much all the time. I don’t want to pretend like nothing happen. Don’t want “open one eye and close one eye”… All i want is a very very very normal and stable life. A very simple partner without anything but just me. I don’t need my partner to be famous, talented, active, and an outgoing person. But it’s totally terbalik and impossible. I need a trustworthy partner beside me forever. In people views is to do and try more things that never do or try b4 since you are young. Because you might not have the chance to do it when you are old. It’s true. I hope my love one can do everything he likes and never feel regret. But not doing it when together with me. Cause i just want my partner only focus on me more than everything. Due to my selfish attitude, i choose to leave him and let him do everything he likes cause i know myself cannot accept this kind of person. I choose to be alone better than argue with him. It’s not worth it to miss any chance outside cause of me. I admit i’m stubborn and keep think to negative side. Cause the scar in my heart is deep and still pain.

He really change alot better than last time. He treat me very good and pamper me. He is trying his best to gain back my confidence on him. I know he feel very guilty for the past. I very enjoy the happy and sweet time with him now. He never fight back when i argue with him. I very surprise cause he is not like that last time. But sometime make him hard to do between my family and his stuff. Especially my bad temper >.<… I scare he will hate me someday. We are really appreciate our relationship now.

I don’t want the past things happen again. I don’t want to endure the things i don’t wish to see again. I don’t want to cry very badly and suffer alone again. I don’t want to have nightmare and suddenly cry in the midnight while i’m sleeping again. I never have a good dream about us. I’m over protect my feeling after so many times. It’s too over already… i hold it too tight till i cannot breath… just don’t want to get hurt again… sigh…

Do you know how much i miss YOU !!

The moment pinch sum’s nipple with cheng~

You all were here with us~

ermm… thing i always do to him~ lol~

 

cheng~ we like play nipples right? LOL ~

Me and Jay Chou ~ or Rain~ xD

Took during the CNY 2009~ Wish to celebrate our CNY  together next year 2011 :D

Wait for you all coming back !! I miss to play and chit chat with you guys !!

I want camhore with jiu ma T.T

I want to fool around with cheng T.T

I want to pinch sum T.T

I want to get Jay’s signature.. lol~

Miss~

You told me that you can see me when you look at the moon. But i cannot see you when i look at the moon… I only can see how light is the moon… At that moment, i flashbacked many memories of us… i  just realized that you already live in my bottom of heart many years ago… till now… I love you this heart is never change in these years.

You left here for almost 1 week already. There’s a lot stuff i wanna share with you. I know you too. I don’t know how to describe how much i miss you dy.. Only keep this feeling in my heart and counting the days you coming back. :)

自己拿来衰！

原来我没有朋友可以说我的心事。全因为一个人。没人愿意听我的心事，因为是关于他的。反而我一定会给朋友骂我活该，自己拿来衰。

有几个月没听到他骂我了，没听到他对我说的每一句伤害的话。今天。。。我终于又听到了。他还是向以前那样对我，那样伤我。原来我在他心目中是那么下贱，没尊严。所有的问题都先赖在我身上。

我是真的自己拿来衰。给了这么多机会，是因为我真的以为他会对我再好一点。现在应该说我很天真。我不敢对任何人说我的不开心。我不想给朋友讲我，说我。。因为我真的无药可救。一次又一次令大家失望，令我家人担心。

为什么只有我一个人在面对。为什么那么多为什么。我真的怕了以前的日子，我答应过自己不要再过这些伤心，痛苦的日子。我不怕再失去。我只想开开心心过我的新年。我不想一个人过。

我知道我的付出已经算不了什么。我再也没有期望或希望了，不想要求什么了。因为我一直以来都是自己拿来衰！

Zzz….very sien…. very emo….

Suddenly feel like want to blog about my emo stuff. =.= again? sighhhh….

No one can trust… No one i can talk to… No one understand me… No one care for me… No one listen to me… No one make me feel happy… No one can give me confidence… No one…………

What i was expected is just a joke. Truly joke ! Feel extremely stupid… Feel hurt… No need to ask for reason… Cause i already know it.

The saddest thing is you are not the one who can listen to me, care for me, understand me, make me feel happy, give me confidence.… Maybe now you did all this to me… but i think it’s just a short term…

Being alone really nothing? Emo, cry, sad alone ? No need to share every happy or sad thing with someone that you like or love? Just blogging to express out here … Talk to myself… No need other people to accompany???

I’m used to be alone wherever i go… whenever i eat in the restaurant… Whatever i do …

I know i really need a right person to be with me. Accompany me all the while… Do everything with me… Make me happy everytime… Always there for me….

Don’t hope so much things la… Love is hopeless…. I will “shut down my door, refused to let anyone to knock my door” ! ………………………. Really negative thinking … =.=

What am i writing now…. Don’t care…

New Year Eve ~

It’s 2010 now. And i’m sick for a week already. =.=… Is it a bad year to me ? :( Hope not ler…. Wish me get well soon ler… hehe…. Anyways, wish everyone Happy New Year ^^

We celebrated our new year at kent’s house. lol… I call him “kent”… very weird arrrrrrr…… haha… Just had a small gathering with murnianz… Thanks for kent’s mom and his maid for preparing so many foods to us. :) Really ng hou yi si cause we didn’t help anything but only eat eat eat there…. keke…

hmm… lazy to upload so many pictures again. You guys can view from my facebook. But i like this picture so much… XD

hahahahaha… who is that santa ? He is SUMYEH la…. lol… 3 of them step on him… hahaha….  Sum ~ you mou jun yim la… XD

Happy gathering with them :) But it’s not complete cause without cheng and sum here… sigh…. Miss them till crazy… keke…. I’m waiting for next year gathering :) Maybe sum, cheng, mich, khew khai and wei ping all back to Msia already =D I want SSM gang back together again ^^

Outing ~

Wow…. this post should be very long time ago. hmm… few weeks ago ba… =P Long time didn’t update my blog already. Lazy ma… keke….

Well, went to MV with a friend. We went to buy ticket for movie after reached. It was a lot lot lot people queue up at the cinema. =.= While we were waiting for the movie, we went to walk a while and suggested to play bowling :D

Errrrmmmmmmm….. I don’t want show out the name… hahaha… I guess people know which is me …. T_T Let him laughed at me er…. T_T I WANT TO IMPROVE !! Challenge you again ! keke…

Went to Zen had our high tea after bowling session.

Went to Kenny Roger’s after movie :) Discussed very long only decided go to this place. LOL~

 

Had a nice chat with him while having dinner :)

Next time want to force him take picture already. haha…

Moody…

Today is the last day of holiday. I’m unhappy cause my busy life start from tomorrow. Just checked my result. What i guess is true. I failed one subject. I didn’t did well in the paper last time. My fault…. Something happened during that time make me cannot focus and not in the mood to study. This is the 1st time i failed T_T… I insisted want to change college last time cause i don’t like my previous college. My parents spent so much on my study but i failed. I make them disappointed. I don’t want they feel i’m wasting their money. Resit paper need to pay RM200 or RM300. I know i will fail my sub already so i went to work for part time. So i can pay the money for myself. My bad…. I don’t dare to tell them. Plan to cheat on them. It’s not good… I don’t like to cheat. Sigh…. Don’t know how to do. Emo-ing… T_T

By the way, i hate something to happen again. Why people don’t appreciate things that around him/her. When people lost something he/she only will start to care and nervous. When people get something easily he/she won’t care and appreciate more. Why…. If you don’t know how to appreciate don’t ask for many things from someone. Honestly, i really don’t have confidence in love already. I don’t believe got people will really treat me good, love and care about me as long as he can. Most important is i don’t trust you already.

Actually is just a small matter… Don’t know why i will so emo today. I need someone to talk to… Sigh….

Two is better than one ~

[ft. Taylor Swift]
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing
So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing
That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Love this song :) Thanks for a friend intro this nice song to me ^^

Happy New Year ^^

It’s 2010 now. I haven’t say goodbye to 2009 yet. lol… Time past very fast. I’m gonna start class next week. Flashback my 2 months holidays. There were a lot things happened to me. Learned many things on working and know a lot new friends… I thought i will be alone since i broke up. But no…. I have my friends to accompany me. I’m not lonely actually. hehe…

Sigh… Start study again… have to worry many things again… Feel very lazy and don’t wanna study suddenly. hehe… I hate exam and assignments… Can i go for Uni just to know more friends, play, chit chatting ? haha… I forgot i’m still a new student in UCSI. :P I really wish to join a club in college last time. But i feel lazy to do anything now. Just want to stay at home. hahaha… I AM EXTREMELY LAZY now…. @.@ Who can help me… lol…

I really miss “sei mun sum” and my ji mui Cheng ~ T_T Mich is going to fly soon. Q will back to Australia again. No more friends already. T_T cannot go their house to get angpau in this Chinese New Year jor… T_T

Cheng~ The thing we always do to sum… LOL !

What look is that… =.= but i like it.. XD

That is U !! :P

 

Had a very happy moment with my buddies… I miss my past time with them… T_T I just post few pictures only… Cause there are a lot if want to post. =.=

Really hope we can gather again, back to last time… Miss you guys like crazy… @.@

Wish you all Happy New Year la… Always miss me ok :D haha… Muakssss~