Zzz….very sien…. very emo….

Suddenly feel like want to blog about my emo stuff. =.= again? sighhhh….

No one can trust… No one i can talk to… No one understand me… No one care for me… No one listen to me… No one make me feel happy… No one can give me confidence… No one…………

What i was expected is just a joke. Truly joke ! Feel extremely stupid… Feel hurt… No need to ask for reason… Cause i already know it.

The saddest thing is you are not the one who can listen to me, care for me, understand me, make me feel happy, give me confidence.… Maybe now you did all this to me… but i think it’s just a short term…

Being alone really nothing? Emo, cry, sad alone ? No need to share every happy or sad thing with someone that you like or love? Just blogging to express out here … Talk to myself… No need other people to accompany???

I’m used to be alone wherever i go… whenever i eat in the restaurant… Whatever i do …

I know i really need a right person to be with me. Accompany me all the while… Do everything with me… Make me happy everytime… Always there for me….

Don’t hope so much things la… Love is hopeless…. I will “shut down my door, refused to let anyone to knock my door” ! ………………………. Really negative thinking … =.=

What am i writing now…. Don’t care…

New Year Eve ~

It’s 2010 now. And i’m sick for a week already. =.=… Is it a bad year to me ? :( Hope not ler…. Wish me get well soon ler… hehe…. Anyways, wish everyone Happy New Year ^^

We celebrated our new year at kent’s house. lol… I call him “kent”… very weird arrrrrrr…… haha… Just had a small gathering with murnianz… Thanks for kent’s mom and his maid for preparing so many foods to us. :) Really ng hou yi si cause we didn’t help anything but only eat eat eat there…. keke…

hmm… lazy to upload so many pictures again. You guys can view from my facebook. But i like this picture so much… XD

hahahahaha… who is that santa ? He is SUMYEH la…. lol… 3 of them step on him… hahaha….  Sum ~ you mou jun yim la… XD

Happy gathering with them :) But it’s not complete cause without cheng and sum here… sigh…. Miss them till crazy… keke…. I’m waiting for next year gathering :) Maybe sum, cheng, mich, khew khai and wei ping all back to Msia already =D I want SSM gang back together again ^^

Outing ~

Wow…. this post should be very long time ago. hmm… few weeks ago ba… =P Long time didn’t update my blog already. Lazy ma… keke….

Well, went to MV with a friend. We went to buy ticket for movie after reached. It was a lot lot lot people queue up at the cinema. =.= While we were waiting for the movie, we went to walk a while and suggested to play bowling :D

Errrrmmmmmmm….. I don’t want show out the name… hahaha… I guess people know which is me …. T_T Let him laughed at me er…. T_T I WANT TO IMPROVE !! Challenge you again ! keke…

Went to Zen had our high tea after bowling session.

Went to Kenny Roger’s after movie :) Discussed very long only decided go to this place. LOL~

 

Had a nice chat with him while having dinner :)

Next time want to force him take picture already. haha…

Moody…

Today is the last day of holiday. I’m unhappy cause my busy life start from tomorrow. Just checked my result. What i guess is true. I failed one subject. I didn’t did well in the paper last time. My fault…. Something happened during that time make me cannot focus and not in the mood to study. This is the 1st time i failed T_T… I insisted want to change college last time cause i don’t like my previous college. My parents spent so much on my study but i failed. I make them disappointed. I don’t want they feel i’m wasting their money. Resit paper need to pay RM200 or RM300. I know i will fail my sub already so i went to work for part time. So i can pay the money for myself. My bad…. I don’t dare to tell them. Plan to cheat on them. It’s not good… I don’t like to cheat. Sigh…. Don’t know how to do. Emo-ing… T_T

By the way, i hate something to happen again. Why people don’t appreciate things that around him/her. When people lost something he/she only will start to care and nervous. When people get something easily he/she won’t care and appreciate more. Why…. If you don’t know how to appreciate don’t ask for many things from someone. Honestly, i really don’t have confidence in love already. I don’t believe got people will really treat me good, love and care about me as long as he can. Most important is i don’t trust you already.

Actually is just a small matter… Don’t know why i will so emo today. I need someone to talk to… Sigh….

Two is better than one ~

[ft. Taylor Swift]
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing
So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing
That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Love this song :) Thanks for a friend intro this nice song to me ^^

Happy New Year ^^

It’s 2010 now. I haven’t say goodbye to 2009 yet. lol… Time past very fast. I’m gonna start class next week. Flashback my 2 months holidays. There were a lot things happened to me. Learned many things on working and know a lot new friends… I thought i will be alone since i broke up. But no…. I have my friends to accompany me. I’m not lonely actually. hehe…

Sigh… Start study again… have to worry many things again… Feel very lazy and don’t wanna study suddenly. hehe… I hate exam and assignments… Can i go for Uni just to know more friends, play, chit chatting ? haha… I forgot i’m still a new student in UCSI. :P I really wish to join a club in college last time. But i feel lazy to do anything now. Just want to stay at home. hahaha… I AM EXTREMELY LAZY now…. @.@ Who can help me… lol…

I really miss “sei mun sum” and my ji mui Cheng ~ T_T Mich is going to fly soon. Q will back to Australia again. No more friends already. T_T cannot go their house to get angpau in this Chinese New Year jor… T_T

Cheng~ The thing we always do to sum… LOL !

What look is that… =.= but i like it.. XD

That is U !! :P

 

Had a very happy moment with my buddies… I miss my past time with them… T_T I just post few pictures only… Cause there are a lot if want to post. =.=

Really hope we can gather again, back to last time… Miss you guys like crazy… @.@

Wish you all Happy New Year la… Always miss me ok :D haha… Muakssss~